4.04.2019

Old Messages


Celts in ages past thought they knew just where
Our threadbare world grew thinner still,
And Heaven drew near to fill the space,
Like wind flows through a rent or tear.

Find you a shard of stone that juts in air,
Perhaps a foggy moor with no one near,
And Time, the steady rule by which we live,
No longer curbs us in with stubborn grip.

The inner self, bound per decree, stands free
To simply be with no restraint. No gates
Rise tall between what's past and now
Or even block the sight from what is yet to be.

These patches stand aloof from all around
And feed a need within too often bare,
But will not welcome drifters in without exchange,
For one must lose something if one would gain.

Some hunt for sacred spots with purposed will,
Though I've found most by stumbling in,
Heedless of that to which I near,
Until I cannot make the choice to skirt around
Nor gain what I may not wish to bear.

A bedroom, crammed with odds and ends,
Unlikely though it was, became a timeless spot one night.
In the dark it rose between the dresser and the bed
To fill the room: in darkness, unseen light.

No one guessed a box recording sound
In the home of new-wed man and wife
Would speak again untouched and fresh--
No less the man and wife, much older now,
Who lay and listened as ghosts took on flesh.

A father's words that were unheard for eighteen years,
His voice a form of presence while no longer here,
As if no time had passed made joy and pain
Just as they had before spring up again.

And then into the silence spoke a friend--
Life and warmth he was, who died too young
For us to know he'd go, which left,
As is the case, no time to say goodbye,
Just this voice for us to apprehend.

5 comments :

heidiann(e) said...

Incredible.

Thank you.

The book I'm reading now mentions that as we age, all memories, even happy ones, hold a painful weight.
I guess I didn't realize how much I agreed.

Abigail said...

And I missed the perfect chance to ask you about the book! Was it the one you showed me right before we left?

Have you ever read T.S. Eliot's Four Quartets? I first read it at Houghton for senior seminar, and it hit me deep in the center, even though I didn't understand half of what I read. I know Dani despised it and made disparaging comments about how Eliot was deliberately obtuse (which means it's OKAY if I didn't understand it all, right?). I've revisited it since and have been feeling a need to read it again lately. Time is both friend and enemy to the spirit-- that "painful weight" is exactly right-- and somehow Eliot's (and St. Julian's) words reconcile that for me with "All manner of things shall be well."

heidiann(e) said...

Yes, that book! "The Clockmaker's Daughter."
I'm still trying to decide how I feel about it overall, in terms of "quality novels," but I am enjoying it, at least.

I don't think I've read "Four Quartets." But I've always liked T.S. Eliot.

Deborah Purdy said...

This is beautiful. And I know just the sort of timeless moments you mean.

Abigail said...

Heidi,
I bet you've always liked Macavity, too. :)
And when I typed "obtuse," I meant "opaque," but you probably guessed that already.

Thanks, Deborah.
Beware of craggy rocks, foggy moors, and old answering machines.